Tomorrow is the big day!

So I leave for Uganda tomorrow.. it's hard to believe. I've spent so much time telling people I'm going to Africa and talking about what I'm doing but not a lot of time actually thinking about going and letting it sink in. I suppose these things never really sink in until they are actually happening. But still, it's easy to forget about why I'm actually doing this and for me it's really important that I stay connected to that and that I keep reflecting on my experience otherwise I'm not getting much out of it. It's so hard to separate from everything else and just live and feel content with my decisions when there is so much doubt and questioning around me. I feel super calm and not all that worried about the next couple of months and for me that's normal. Sometimes it feels a bit lonely to be in touch with myself because it makes me feel pretty disconnected from the majority of the people in my life. I don't know if that makes sense but it does in my head. I'm looking forward to going somewhere where I actually feel less lonely and more normal. I know I am doing the right thing. I booked this trip because I needed to. I didn't spend a ton of time hesitating and decided to just go for it and hope for the best and let everything else (hopefully) fall in to place. So far things have worked out and I think that's because I'm doing what I'm meant to be doing. And also because I've worked hard and sacrificed a lot to make it happen of course. But that's what living out our dreams is about! Ever since I got back from my trip I have been dreaming (literally) about returning to Uganda. And now it's happening and it feels completely surreal.

I'm walking into this experience with very little expectations or ideas about what is going to happen. I have hopes for what I might like to get out of this trip, but that's basically just that I will learn and grow as a person from it and I'm pretty sure that's a guarantee in this case. I'd like to be inspired and I want my passion to be ignited again. It'll be great just being a part of something good. I feel like I've been missing out on that aspect for a while and it's something that is so important to me in my life. It seems so simple to just be part of something good. But how many of us can truthfully say we are? Something that benefits humanity and aims to make the world a better place. Not to be totally cheesy here or to presume that I am changing the world or anything, but I do feel that by helping a little bit where I can and by growing into a better person each day, I am doing my life and society a justice. Maybe a small one but still, it's something.