some thoughts

So this blog may not be completely about Africa anymore. I've been back for 8 months now (holy crap) and though that was the original inspiration for creating this blog and some of my posts will still be related to that experience, other things in life still inspire me to write. Honestly I have been debating changing the name of my blog..maybe to something like, 'Life After Africa' lol. Suggestions?

Anyways, I wrote this blurp last night:


For as long as I can remember it making sense I've always believed that everything happens for a reason. And as time has gone by its only become more and more clear to me what that means. My intuition has grown stronger, I've paid more attention to certain things and Ive connected a lot of dots. Not only do things happen for a reason in terms of how most people understand that statement (i.e. learning from mistakes, being in the right place at the right time, etc.) but they happen because they were supposed to happen as part of some larger scale plan. I won't go as far as saying that every little detail of our lives is pre determined and that it doesn't matter what we do at the end of the day because its out of our control. Though some people may believe that, I think there's more to it than that. I think that what we decide to do with information that is given to us and the amount of time and attention, or lack there of, that we give to what we are constantly taking in will impact what will happen in our daily lives. Every choice we make has a contribution to the course of life. And not just the course of your life, but of everyone and everything around you. I think when we get feelings and signs that things are right or when we may be experiencing a chain of events that feels like bad luck, it is these feelings that tell us whether or not we are on track. So if bad things are happening specifically to you left, right and center, maybe you should take a step back and figure out what you are pushing that maybe you shouldn't be. Or what you aren't doing that you should be doing. More people need to trust their guts and follow these feelings. Then again more people need to spend more time getting to the bottom of who they really are before they can even come close to being in touch with these gut feelings. Without that strong sense of self you will be lost and you'll never have that trust in yourself. You'll either always look to other people for guidance or you'll get yourself into some shitty situations.

Tonight I was talking to a friend about things related to this whole concept and I mentioned that I knew that there was a reason she was in my life and that it was significant for me. I have known all along that it was meant to happen as part of my journey through life which is why I have taken the relationship very seriously. I've discovered so many things about all of it.. But that's another story. But had I not linked up with this person, my life today would be different. I can't say how but I just know it would be.

When you start paying attention to details and seeing more things as significant rather than just ignoring them or getting so caught up in routine activities of daily life, life actually becomes something more meaningful. It's amazing how long I have been trying to ignore things. And only once my eyes were opened to other things did everything start changing. And getting the push that I needed put things in motion for me that I have known needed to be in motion for some time but didn't have that motivation to get there.

The more I piece things together the more interesting and exciting and scary (in a good way) life gets.