I do most of my thinking in the middle of the night

I've really been feeling lately that even though I love and miss Uganda so much it hurts sometimes, I need to find a way to move on with my life here. I like that I can talk about my trip in my blog because I feel like there is no other place in my life right now for that. I feel like I'm being annoying by talking about it and I really just don't feel like anyone cares. I have learned this and have been really frustrated by this but I'm getting over it. The experience was mine and mine only and that's awesome for me. I don't need anyone to validate how much it meant to me, as long as I am taking what I got from it and applying that to who I am now.

I was reflecting the other day on what it felt like in the year approaching Uganda and I had to laugh. I saw a friend recently who has been away for almost a year and she was like, 'so you went to Uganda?? Last time I talked to you, you were still unsure about whether or not you were going.' I was so uneasy with the idea still at that time and up until the day I left it was constant fear and uncertainty about what was to come. If only I had known then what I know now.. I probably wouldn't have booked a return ticket haha! I am realizing that I really would like to strive for the excitement and curiosity I felt every day while I was away. I want that again so badly!

A few things getting me excited about life NOW:

My new job. Very thrilled to be doing something different with people who respect and appreciate me. It's gonna be an adjustement but I need that challenge. Realistically I need a bigger challenge, but I'll take it a step at a time.

My beast of a vehicle is back on the road! Unfortunately it needs a bit of work and some serious TLC but this is still such a good thing.

I think I am finally starting to figure out what I might want to do with my life career-wise. For now at least. (I figure I'll change jobs very often otherwise I'll be bored to death!) Now I just need to figure out what I need to do to get there. I've had a lot of ideas without much execution lately - I need to work on this.

Moving out. I need to, and I'm going to. Not just yet, I've got no serious plans. But I'm definitely getting excited about it. I'm not going to rush it because there's no need. I would like a smooth transition. I'm aiming for January. Items for the home will be on my Christmas wish list this year for sure!